Whether you call it monday blues or a light depression, there are those days (and those not
necessarily happen on monday) where you feel like there is an inner you that wants to drag you
somewhere cozy, comfortable, safe and preferably isolated. Today I had this feeling... But today, I was decided to fight against it, no matter how much would cost
me... Whether you decide to do sports, clean the house (this one also works very good for me) or just go for a walk, you
might find yourself going through this stages.
Part I - Stay away from beds, sofas, etc.
Whatever happens, do not, I repeat, do not, fall into the temptation of lying, sitting or resting for a second.
I came from work, and the all ME: body, mind and soul were screaming for asylum. I resisted, I needed to go to the gym, "doing sport is good Cris, sport makes you feel better" I thought. So I got home, went straight to my bedroom and without much thinking and no sitting I put my equipment inside my backpack. I was hungry, I wanted to eat something... "Let's get a yogurt", NO, wrong, that means siting, waiting, staying. I will go now. I got myself a cookie and left the house as fast as I could.
Part II - Resist to all the "signs"
Do not start reading signs everywhere. The world is not against you and is not sending you signals.
Couldn't find my sports bra, and I resisted... There was a part of me saying "that is a sign, just stay home", but I am strong "I will make it with ANY bra". YES. ANY bra would do and let's be realistic, sports bras are probably just a marketing thing. I did my best to get things in perspective. My head slightly ached, I started with some kind of psychosomatic symptoms while driving. I drove and all I could hear was my head aching and my thoughts on how cool would have been watching a bit of TV. Time to find a parking spot, "mission impossible, this is a sign". NO, it ISN'T, you just got a big car and parking is hard, and not just today, but every day in this area thousands of people struggle to park their cars, keep yourself calm, be patient. Finally, the car was parked and I was late to the class.
Part III - Busy mind = happy mind
Just keep your brain activity 100% on something that is NOT your problem.
I wanted to do some DANCE alike shit, something with a name like "Dance like an MTV star". I find those classes way more entertaining, because they represent making sports and using a brain at the same time: there is always this very complex choreography (and Germans make it really, really complex) that leaves me no body or mind function to think about how bad my day went, or how much my headaches. Simple as that.
Part IV - Be proud, you made it
After the class I felt tired, but nevertheless my bad thoughts were still there, together with hot flashes that are a consequence of a german gym: not refrigerated and too hot, "because this is a place to sweat" and also "please don't open the window because you might get an erkältung". I held strong, washed my face with cold water and went under the cold shower. Again with more time to think, I started recovering and thinking that I made it.
It is not that my day got necessarily better, neither my problems disappear, even when the feeling comes back tomorrow or in a week, I feel proud, I became stronger and I won, and
tomorrow I won't regret it.
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